| they're still there! |
[Sep. 27th, 2006|10:11 am] |
My muscles, that is. Today was my first day lifting. I worked extra hard on legs and took it somewhat easy on the arms. I'm definitely feeling it a little bit on my surgery side, but it feels damn good. I also have found a new outdoor exercise- Riding my bike. We live literally up the block from Jay Blanchard, and there's a nice wide paved trail that goes all the way out to Alafaya. This is great, because it's imperative that I find some exercise that will be sustainable once we move to our new house.
Family Drama
Ugh, now that I have gotten to this section, I really don't feel like writing too much about it. Suffice to say that my mother told me on Sunday that if "you keep this up, I'm not coming to the wedding." I said "I will call you later when you are calmer" and hung up, and now I'm the bad guy. No thanks, we don't need any more crazy, we're all full up here.
House Drama
I came home the other day, and once again my eggs were gone. Um, WTF? Josh owned up that he threw them out because they were out of date (by less than two weeks!!). Was I not clear LAST time I told you not to throw my shit out? He said that he was sorry but he certainly would continue to throw "old" stuff out. Too bad you can't throw out your own rotted tomatoes or brownies that are so old they are now fossilized. Argh. I cannot wait to move out.
Medical stuff
Cholesterol is now 281, HDL 65, LDL 193. Doc is pushing for meds. Stitches came out from the incision site yesterday and everything with that looks good. It's still a little swollen/tender, but nothing major. |
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| slacking already |
[Sep. 22nd, 2006|01:38 pm] |
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So much for daily updating. I suck, pretty much. Recovery from the surgery was going well, until I decided to go to the gym despite doctor's orders not to. And now I understand why I was told to stay the hell out for the first week. So that was followed by a meltdown that led to the inhalation of a giant cup of costco frozen yogurt (which, as andrea astutely pointed out, isn't really so terrible). Which was immediately followed by a massive depression stemming from the fact that now, with just SEVEN WEEKS left, all my hard work and muscles are disappearing before me (yeah cara, in the 4 days you've been away from the gym). Which just confirms my theory that my body always looks the same, but my eyes work differently when I go to the gym and eat right.
My surgery results came back fine, and my cholesterol is down to 281 (not sure of the LDLs yet). So now I have to figure out if it is going to drop further, and if not, if this lifestyle is worth it for 30 meager points (natch, it's a 10% reduction). Not that I'd change my lifestyle so much, just enough to where it was easy to feed Jason too.
Ok, my surgery site is sore, I think I should call it a day. |
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| review for Sunday |
[Sep. 18th, 2006|05:32 am] |
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Got a full 8 hours and headed to the gym for the 8:30 am step class. Thoroughly exhausted, I headed home and had a minor blow-up on my housemates on the state of disgustingness of our kitchen. Nikki felt remorseful and helped, while Josh fled the situation and Jason stormed off to Home Depot. All so predictable.
I got all of my "chores list" done- cleaned floors, cleaned bathroom, oil change, bought stuff at Costco, filled up car. Damn, this journal is getting mundane. I promise juicier stuff if you continue reading (Also, I'd like to add that it's 5:30am, and I should get points for writing anything at all at this ungodly hour)... Met up with my mom at the new house around 3, and then unsuccessfully ran some wedding errands. She liked the wedding invitations, and totally bought it when, after saying "oh, I guess you didn't number them," I replied "um, yeah, we used invisible ink." I'm serious, guys. Only a small white lie. So for any of my friends reading this, PLEASE write your name on your RSVP so I won't have egg on my face. lol.
After wedding stuff we met up with Jason at Keller's BBQ on University- awesome food, all you can eat, $9.99. Now, usually there's nothing I can eat at a BBQ joint (ok, nothing I am SUPPOSED to eat), but my mom and Jason talked me into it somehow, and I figured that since I would be missing out on a few meals today (as my stomach is already reminding me), it would somehow be a fair exchange.
I gorged myself.
Plain and simple.
I don't feel as guilty as I thought I would, but DAMN, I ate a lot.
Salad. My 2 chicken breasts, sans skin. My mom's chicken breast, also sans skin. Some mashed potatoes. Lots of french fries. 2 big pieces of garlic bread. YIKES! They both said neither of them had ever seen me eat so much!!! Most people would have a decreased appetite with a looming surgery, but nope, not me! Here's hoping the meal wasn't more than 1,500 cals or so (I didn't even BOTHER tracking). Oh, and I forgot to add, we never even got around to a re-order (from the all you can eat part). That was all part of the original platter. Oh, and how could I neglect to mention the 5 cent beer????
Now for the fun stuff. After we arrived back home, while I was in the bathroom, Josh came in and talked to Jason... I overheard the words "moving out." Great. By the time I got out, Josh was gone, but Jason claimed that Josh and Nikki were moving out at the end of the month because I yelled at them about the dishes. WTF??? No way, I thought. No one makes a humongous life change like that over dishes. Well, it turns out that the real story is that Nikki wants to move out. Josh says he and Nikki need to work on their relationship and they can't do that without their own space, it's too hard. Hmmm. Josh says if Nikki moves, he will probably go with her. What am I thinking? Mmmm, no way. Nikki is letting him believe that for now, but once she moves, I do not think Josh will be invited to go along. But time will tell. It certainly doesn't ring true about the needing space thing when they know we will be gone in just a few months. Why move your whole likfe out of a house you OWN (Josh) if you will have it all to yourself soon enough. Why not just tough it out? Which is why I believe this is the beginning of an easy letdown. I have never seen a relationship (Other than Scott and Andrea's) work out once someone moves out. I think Nikki, who has not been out with her friends once since Josh returned, decided she really does like her freedom and going out with her friends. The two of them just can't find a happy medium. Anyways. The consequence for J and I is purely financial (well, and the kitchen would stay clean). It really puts us in a rough spot if Josh leaves, but I'm not overly concerned.
Ok, I really want to empty the DW before we leave, since, once again, I am sure no one else will be thoughtful enough to do so. |
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| Saturday's recap |
[Sep. 17th, 2006|08:29 pm] |
for yesterday the 16th:
Went to am cycle class, felt really loooooong
Didn't eat much during the day but was insatiable last night
Had 2 diet cokes
Eye compresses x 2
Got 8 hours of sleep!!!!
Overall felt very antsy and fidgety, probably nerves related to surgery on Monday. |
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| the daily update |
[Sep. 16th, 2006|12:16 pm] |
Yesterday was pre-op "testing" (test for what? they didn't test me on anything! Not that I'm complaining...). It took an hour and a half for them to tell me not to eat after midnight. Fantastico.
Eye appointment did not go as well as planned. The infiltrates are still there and apparently I have a blocked gland of some kind. So I had to go buy some REALLY expensive eye drops- one to use during the day and a goopier one for night. Also, I have to put hot compresses on my eyes twice a day, which is actually ok, since it gives me a way to force myself to chill and do nothing for at least half an hour a day.
Speaking of... I think that so much of this all has to do with the abuse I have been dishing out to my body, particularly stress and lack of sleep. No wonder I can't concentrate or lose weight... I know, duh. So I'm going to make a concerted effort to get 8 hours a night and use the journal more for self-assessing.
Wedding stuff: invitations are done save for being assembled, which is happening this afternoon. woohoo, something my mom can leave me the hell alone about.
Self assessment, Friday 9/15
Went to am circuit step class, didn't feel too sluggish
Ate pretty well, no complaints there
Only had one diet dr. pepper
Eye compresses x 2
Got 8 hours of sleep!!!! |
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| A catchup post |
[Sep. 13th, 2006|12:50 pm] |
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Maybe I should just update and capture everything that's been going on, just for the hell of it.
About 6 weeks ago, I found a lump between my left breast and armpit while I was in the shower. The first time I found it, I couldn't re-find it, so then I thought maybe I'd imagined it. But sure enough, a few days later, I found it again. It was small and hard, like a pea, and didn't hurt at all. So I called my ob/gyn and asked if it could wait till my annual... She said no, come in and we scheduled an appt. for Aug 14th. She was able to feel it, and referred me for a diagnostic mammogram and ultrasound.
On the 23rd I experienced the joy of boob-squishing. They ended up finding THREE things total:
1) the lump I went in for originally, which the doc said he "wanted" to be a lymph node but wasn't sure
2) a sort-of match to lump no. 1 on the right side
3) an entirely different lump I didn't know I had, also on the left
I had really expected the mammo and us to show nothing, so I hadn't bothered to research it out like I should. I really thought they would look and say yup, it's nothing, have a nice day. But that wasn't the case, and the doc started talking about biopsies and stuff and it was just a lot of information at once. My written report came back as a BIRADS-4, which means suspicious for cancer. Typically, 20-50% of BIRADS-4 are cancerous. Also, 80% of biopsies come back as non cancerous.
My ob/gyn referred me to a breast surgeon to do biopsies. And the googling began... I know more about boobs and cancer than I ever cared to, lol.
The surgeon at first wanted to remove all 3. However, I didn't really feel like being completely sliced and diced, and after all, removing even a little will make a difference on a small chest :). So I opted for a core biopsy on lump 3 (I was fairly confident that this one was benign) and removal of lump 1. There weren't really any other options for lump 1 because of its location. I decided to leave 2 alone, since... Well, I dunno exactly, just because, I guess.
They were going to do the core biopsy right then and there (I am actually leaving out a small part where I asked if I could have a few minutes to think about what I wanted to do.. and proceeded to have a needle induced freakout) but they determined it was too close to the ribs, so they did a fine needle aspiration instead. They numb your boob and then dig around with a "small" needle. Mmmmmmm. I am still a bit sore, actually. And if you think having novocaine in your mouth is a strange feeling, try having that feeling in one of "the girls." Yuk.
The FNA, predictably, came back A-OK. The surgery for lump 1 is scheduled for Monday. I am alternately moderately and extremely concerned, because the "feel" of the node is not good. However, I did have a tick bite, courtesy of the "destressing" camping trip that MAY be related. Also, I am worried that there's some more general immune issues. I went to the eye dr. last week for my routine exam, and she discovered that I had corneal "infiltrates" of white blood cells in my eyes- they are essentially rejecting my contact lenses. It is fairly common among lens wearers, and I have probably been overwearing them. Still, the fact that it's immune related bugs me. Then, yesterday I went to the dietician (more on that later) and she went to do a fingerprick cholesterol test, just for "fun." And guess what. We couldn't. First she asked if I was anemic (not really). Then she asked me to warm my hands up (I tried to). The when she pricked me, the blood was too THICK to form a droplet to go into the tester thingy. WTF?!?! She tried the other hand, same thing. Argh. So now I'm wondering if it's all connected. I've got a doctor appt. tomorrow to "rule out systemic causes" of the lymph node and to get the chol check. Friday is pre-op bloodwork and eye follow-up. Monday is surgery. Joy.
Wedding
We have a florist. We have no invitations. I am getting no sleep. I really really really wish we'd eloped and thrown a house party. Dammit. Dammit. Dammit.
Nutritionist
The appointment went well, as always. I lost 1% of body fat, my metabolism is the same, and my measurements and weight are the same. She said I am basically down to genes at this point and probably can't/won't lose any more. She also said my eating habits are great, and we can start working towards not tracking, after the stress of the wedding is done. I really feel good about the decisions I have been making for myself- exercise, diet, and schedule. She does think I need to REALLY work actively on stress issues. I know, I know.
Food finds:
Soya Kaas Cheddar is far better than the decent but not melty veggie slices I was using. These make a mean grilled cheese, scrambled egg mess, and I just had a delicious roasted veggie wrap w/ cheddar for lunch. Sweet! I need to dedicate some more time to tofutti. Also, have been slacking on the muffin maker. I just haven't been inspired.
Ok, back to work I guess. |
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| other tofu |
[Sep. 10th, 2006|02:49 pm] |
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No cinnamon sugar tofu yet, but I am working on perfecting a tofu ice cream recipe :) More to come later... |
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| such a slacker |
[Sep. 8th, 2006|10:36 am] |
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Sorry, I have not updated like I should. Things have been crazy busy and I have been dealing with some hopefully minor health stuff.
New foods: The boca sausages are delicious. I have had them on a bun with onions/peppers/KETCHUP (of course) and also mixed in with shirataki with good results both times. Oh, and if you microwave them, take them out of their little plastic sleeve first, or else they will, um, rocket partially out of it, giving your significant other lots of phallic fodder for the evening. Yeah.
Tried the hungry girl recipe for chocolate cherry muffins. They were good, BUT they are round brownies, not muffins. I think I should have just made an executive decision to add a leavening agent, but alas, I did not and ended up with yummy round brownies. Oh well. And I ate half of the remainder of the can of cherry pie filling. lol. mmmmm. In fact, I wish I had the rest of it right now. I have been ravenous today. I've already eaten two breakfasts and a lunch, and it's not even 11 yet. That doesn't bode well.
Coming attractions: just saw a recipe for... wait for it... Cinnamon sugar tofu. You bet I'm trying it!!!!!
Major Breakthrough: I THINK I might feel ok about not tracking. Well, I say that, but who knows. I have been doing things a little differently- eating first and then counting, so I can begin listening to myself more and figure out if I'd do okay if I didn't record religiously. I'm within a few pounds of my goal, but really as long as I don't gain I'm pretty happy with where I am. I have for the most part cut back on my calorie intake, not because I am trying, but because I am eating for my stomach and not for the calculator. I found that I was overeating sometimes to meet certain benchmarks- for example I would eat 50g of cereal in the morning because it's what I planned to do... But if you leave me to my own devices and I pour first and measure second I will pour about 30g. Interesting. I go to the dr. on Tues for a cholesterol recheck, we'll see what she says then. |
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| Outback grillers anyone? |
[Aug. 27th, 2006|09:03 am] |
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The Yves bbq skewers were pretty good! I made them on the foreman, along with some onions, and then topped with brown rice, broccoli, and bbq sauce. It's passable for an outback grillers meal! Sweet! Speaking of sweet, I had a massive chocolate craving last night, so I made a single serving of no pudge brownie topped with pecans and marshmallow. Sort of small serving size, but tasted good. Probably still better than the alternative, which was to make a whole pan of "ooey gooey good and chewy pecan brownies." LOL. Yes, that could have been a massive disaster. |
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| -*-*-news flash!-*-*- |
[Aug. 26th, 2006|12:26 pm] |
I just tried the famous shirataki noodles (fettucine style, whole foods, $1.79). I knew not to smell them from other reviewers, so I drained them right away and then boiled them for a few mins. Topped with sauce, soy mozz, soy parm, and sauteed mushrooms and onions. Success! They are a bit slipperier than regular noodles, but I think if you stir fry them a bit first they would be less so. At any rate, totally passable as regular pasta and FORTY CALORIES for the whole damn bag! Yippeeeee! Goodbye Healthy Harvest! Yes, they are expensive, but as a carbaholic, I can deal. Besides, I could make some really great lunches for work with these. Still cheaper than lean cuisine. Barring any unexpected gastrointestinal effects, these are a keeper.
Also tried my recipe for unmeatloaf last night, and it was very good. I made it in two mini-loaf pans, with each pan yielding two servings. The serving size is very reasonable. The loaf turned out a bit crumbly, looked pretty much like meatloaf, and had a nice texture. and it was delicious with ketchup. who am i kidding, everything is delicious with ketchup! I ate one serving and then divided and froze the leftovers for an easy evening comfort meal. These are a bit caloric at 285 cals, but for a day when you don't have a chance to eat much and need lots of protein and fat (it has walnuts, wheat germ, lentils, and brown rice among other things) it works.
Coming this week: boca sausages and yves bbq skewers. stay tuned! |
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